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She may well need to refer you for specialist help, and you should almost certainly be on medication. It's obvious that you need urgent medical help. In fact, I'd say that you are highly depressed. Right now I have no energy at all and feel like I am going nowhere. I find myself unable to answer the door or the phone sometimes, I am so frightened of one-on-one contact, yet other times I can laugh and joke with friends. I feel entirely consumed by a feeling that I deserve to die and after particularly upsetting events I will test myself on bridges or the local pier and then feel frustrated by my cowardice. I would punch my arms and bruise them, I would dig my nails deep into my hands during conversations, but more often I slap myself around the head until I feel dizzy, my sight blurs and sounds dull. I was constantly verbally abused, and excluded from normal school life.Īs I grew older I became more and more incapable of social interaction, which now seems to have resulted in self-hatred.Īt 16 I began taking overdoses of my asthma medication and began to self-harm. This was further exacerbated by five years of being bullied at high school. When I was 12-years-old my previously sheltered upbringing was shattered by the massacre that occurred in my primary school in Dunblane. I believe I am severely depressed and am concerned that I am heading for a breakdown.įor as long as I can remember I have been unhappy with my life and myself.
